Again, why would I willfully put myself in a position of having people attempting to torture and/or kill me? I chose a vocation I felt would offer me the best rewards I was capable of achieving and can assure you, thanks to older people advising me, emotion was completely removed from that decision.

When counseling people seeking advice on their path in life I find it intellectually dishonest to consider recommending a vocation where they put their life at risk when commanded to do so with no input or decision as to the logic and reasoning behind such commands. You chose such a vocation and yet refuse any criticism of the orders you follow, preferring to defer criticism with statements of 'people should do what I do to understand what I do' with seemingly no understanding that a majority of any population prefers to avoid what you do. As your vocation requires you unquestionably following someone else's orders without your input or opinion, why do you feel it necessary to emotionally defend those orders when someone disagrees with the intent and results of following those orders? You're not personally responsible for anything but following and executing someone else's orders, a job you chose.